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my deepest gratitude...

-π2'faithinred-

It's been hundreds days, I never touched my blog..

since I've been through some heavy moment in my life these days..

Loosing someone who I trust and love the most...

Being betrayed by someone who ever known as my only one..

things had changed..

from everything to nothing..

promise turns to rubbish...

as I said before..

special things are switched to some usual ones..

but then,

In my darkest side of my life...

I could find so many stars are shinin'

up on the sky of my mind....

yup.. they are MY BEST FRIENDS..

they told me...that..

1. THIS IS NOT the end of the world..

2. I still have a beautiful, adventurous, and great life in front of my eyes..

3. I'm NOT ALONE

4. They know it's NOT EASY... but it DOES NOT mean that I can't face it, they just need some times..

5. JUST BELIEVE that this might brings something WORTH it

6. The most important things.. they promise me that...THEY WILL TRY THEIR BEST FOR ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME...^^

At least that's what I have left and hold on to nowadays..

Those things that make me stronger day by day...

Even some times....rocks are keep rollin in my head..

Even it seems so hard, but i promise i'll get over it..

i just need times,, guys...

and thank you so much for your affections and kindness for me..

I REALLY DO APPRECIATE IT...

love you so much...guys...

(Eyka, Wening, Adria, Gerry, Rivi, Dila, Ditto, Amenx, Adin, Elang, Dyo, and my Mom finally....hahhaha^^)

mmm.. last but not least...

to Mr.Az,

thx for helping me through this rough times

by every words that u sang..

"And it's okay if you had to go away

Oh, just remember that telephones
Well, they work out of both ways
But if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang"

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Kembali ke ibu pertiwi

-π2'faithinred-

i'm backkk...

back to jakarta...

back to my blog..which i left for couple of months...bcoz of the tons of assignments and laziness...

hmmm....

akhirnya sampe juga di negeri sendiri. di rumah sendiri.. dimana ga perlu keluar uang buat makan, keluar ongkos buat pergi, keluar tenaga buat ngerjain ini itu, terutama urusan rumah...

selain itu seneng juga ketemu sama keluarga yg udah lama ga liat..

tapi disatu sisi...sedih juga ditinggal sama temen2 yang selama 4 bulan sama2...

dari muali ditinggal dila sm rivi... trus wening.. trus gerry.. trus zaki... trus oq...trus eykaaaa...

hmmmm...

kehilangan satu housemate yg ini emang sedih bgt... sedih aj inget2 semua kejadian2 yg dah di lewatin..untung aja masi punay waktu buat ngasih sesuatu terakir yg mungkin ga bisa dinilai pake duit... karena mungkin harganya ga seberapa tapi mudah2an lu suka ya ka.. dan mudah2an itu bermakna dan kena di hati kauu yaaa kaaa........hehehehheheh

Rasanya pengen punya MESIN WAKTU.. biar bisa pegi kemana aj ke situasi yg kita mau....

cape rasaanya musti nangis berulang2 tiap ditinggalin mereka.. cuma ga tau knapa emang mungkin gw org yg cengeng.. makanya dikit2 rasanya mau nangis.. mau ditahan kyk gmana jg ga bisa... huuhhuhuhuh... (tuh kan?!)

hmmm...

ditambah lagi sampe di jakarta ada kabar sedih ttg tmn kita yg paling innocent.. dilaa..hmmm

"DILAAAAA... Ayooo cepet pulih yahhhh.. cepet sembuh biar kt bisa blanja2 maen2, gosip2 lagi...." ayo mak tehhhhh..... yakin deh pasti dila bisa cepet sembuh... huhuhuhuhu"

hmmmm...

udah gitu ditmbh mgkn selama di indo ini... gw bakal susah ketemu sama ociiii..... huhuhu...sediiihhh.. tapi yah gw bakal berusaha buat kuat dan ngisi liburan ini dgn have fun sm tmn2 and yg pasti ttp harus blajar deh...

alrighty... since my eyes is burst like an orange bcos too mats juice come out after the all goodbye scenes.....

then i think i need relax my mind first...

k... so g'night WORLD , FRIENDS, and also my PANDA^^...

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unstable mind..

-π2'faithinred-

i wanna be her..

i wanna be like them..

i had so many dreams in my mind...

i have a long to-do list in my notes...

one by one, it slowly gone..

whether, i finally find it..

or maybe it just fades out as the time goes by...

Time.. is the only thing who decide what will goes next ?

also between you and me..

everytime means everything..

but, i'm afraid..

that i'll lost those times..

as i will lost everything

at the same Time...

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Fiiiuuuuhh

-π2'faithinred-

HUuuhhhh....kayaknya udah sangat lama ga nulis2 lagi di blog, karena udh sebulan blakangan ini gw dipusingin sama tugas2 gw yg ga kira2... makanya buat online pun aja bis adikatakan jarang... Bahkan seminggu ini gw ga bisa tidur pules, tiap hari kepikiran tugas2 yg super banyak... bahkan saking stress dan capenya, gw sampe mimpi ttg tugas2 itu, entah gw mimpi lagi di depan komputer sambil ngedit2, bahkan sampe nendang kepala guru gw pake bola...( haahhahhahahhaha... tapi gw seneng dgn part itu)..... mungkin itu emang karena efek saking stressnya... belum lagi abis cape dari futsal kmaren, hari ini dan 2 hari kedepan gw masih harus shooting buat tugas2 gw........... HHHHHHHhhhh... yasudahlah.... terima saja... tapi gw yakin gw bisa mengakhir semester ini dgn baikk... HARUS OPTMISSSSS !!! hmmm..ok... it's time to go now... c u later..

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Daaaa Boluuuuuu...

-π2'faithinred-

hhhhh...

this morning we had lost our beloved baby cat, named Bolu or JohnBob..

We were shocked when we found him lay down and stiff...

no movement, no response..

it's like so hard to let him go..

but, maybe it is his time..

maybe he has to do something else in other side of the world..

let's just pray for this adorable creature of God..

may he reached his way to get a better life, there with HIM forever..

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

Sayonara Boluu...

I'll never forgert those times we ever spent together..

everytime you sleep in our hand..

We love you...

so much..

-RIP-

Bolu...

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L.O.V.E.

-π2'faithinred-

love love love...

everyday feels so great and complete..

because there's you beside me..

even sometimes we feel bad for some reasons..

but i know, that it won't be forever..

cause if we want to look back..

we've ever been trough the hardest part of our love live..

so we should not be afraid anymore..

to face every single things in front of us..

as long as we still together..

-i love u-

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fiuuuuhh....

-π2'faithinred-

hhhh... akhirnya kelar juga tugas short story... ettt dah.....

edan banget semeseter ini.....tugas nya udah kayak ujan ga berenti2, dereeeeeeeessss....

huuuuhhh... masi ada berpuluh2 tugas lagi yg musti dikerjain.. dan total2 semuanya ada 20 tugas... GILAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....

pengen cari pelarian stress yg asik.. apaaaann yah..?

tadi diajak sama kwisss.. ke china....?

mauuuuuuu aaaaaaaaahhhh..hehehehee.. jadi kayaknya mulai skg musti nabung duit buat ke china nih... ahahahhahaha.....

duuuuuuuuuuuhh.. udah ah ngantuk...istirahat dulu.. nighty nite,world....

oya.. mudah2an pemilu minggu depan berjalan lancar...

AMIIINNN.. Hidup LUCKY... HIDUP LOCOTUUUUMM.....

loh....loh....loh......

lohkoktumband..?!@#$%^&* (dah ngaco)

hasta la vista..^^

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AAAAAAAAAAAArrrgh....

-π2'faithinred-

waaaaaaaaaaaa.... hari ini ujannya parahhh banget..., untung badai telah berlalu..hahaha..

hmm... hari ini, hari yg super pusing dan nyape-in... dah banyak tugas, masih aja ada msalah ini itu, yg bikin makin puyeng.... hmm smoga smuanya bisa lebih baik deh besok... duhhhh.... knapa sih besok ga libur aj... NYEPIIIIII ooooyyyy...........dasar malaysie.....

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overcome my fear..

-π2'faithinred-

hmm... hari ini.. hari pertama gw bisa ngerasa lebih deket sama binatang, karena sebelumnya gw itu orang yg penakut..

sejak ketemu sama anak kucing hari sabtu kemaren, rasanya seneng, sedih, takut, dan bingung, disatu sisi, mungkin rasanya susah buat ngebiarin anak kucing itu mati gitu aj, disatu sisi lain, bingung gimana caranya harus ngerawat dia untuk sementara, at least jangan sampe mati.. tapi untungnya eka ngerti gmana caranya buat ngurusin kucing, dan dari dia jg gw belajar buat berani untuk ngerawat, peduli dan sayang sama kucing itu... hari ini pertama kalinya dalam hidup gw, berani ngasih tangan buat bolu, meluk bolu, sampe nidurin boluu..hahahhaa.....

ternyata emang lucu... ahaha.. tapi kl tar lama2 makin gede dia jadi galak ga yah...mmmm mudah2an jangan deh, mudah2an bisa jadi kyk filou.. ahahahaa....

btw, thanks to her, who taught me to overcome my fear with animals, especialy with our cat, named Bolu or Kucing or JohnBob.. ahhaha.....

semoga dia bisa makin baik dan sehat dr hari ke hari...

amiiiiiiinnn.... Hiduuuppp Boluuuuuuuu...!!

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truth or lie ?!

-π2'faithinred-

depends..

some people might need

a great effort for being a better person...

a huge greenbacks to attract others...

a lot of friends for being popular...

a beautiful tongue to make something bad into good things..

but, is that all that we need to strive for...

being ACCEPTABLE

isn't it too much and tiring ?!

and the biggest question is..

IS THAT ALL TRUTH OR LIE ?

the answer is still GREY

so, just see where u're standing now...

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clock tick..

-π2'faithinred-

sometimes.. some words might change somethings
but, something.. sometimes ruin everything....

faith, kindness, friendship, and love..

are somethings that we believe and keep up with..

but when it come upon a wheel of time..

that's the point where it all being questioned and doubted...

since special is switched to usual..

since affection is swapped with convention..

does it all bring matters ?

unfortunately it does..

and for sometimes it bring some pain..

some feeling that is hard to be told..

like a wish which is hard to be reached..

couple of words that is needed to be heard,

even it doesn't have to be proved..

but.. there's still a tiny little hope...

that it might not bring to an ends..

cause it all too worthy and sincere,

for me....

"SomE tiMes.. Some WOrds, MaY RaisE soMe HopeS...

BuT.. SomE HoPe.. SometiMes... MaY Raise SoMe HurtS.."

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